Things change so quickly. I think about my girlfriend, Kelly, who casually signs on to a dating website for kicks. Sh meets someone online that same day, they have one date, get engaged a few months later, and are married within a year. It's strange how fast life happens.
Life is just like that. You just never know what is in store. Just one change in your day can completely alter your life.
I'm waiting for that moment. I counted up the resumes that I sent and stopped after I got to a hundred. It's frustrating and feels like someone sucker punched me in the chest.
And for the first time in so long I had a mini breakdown the other night. An accumulation of confusion.
I had been withholding this secret and it has been torture. So I'll let the blog world of unfamiliars in on it. I just need to get it out...
I had gotten a job offer in Des Moines last week. It doesn't matter what it was for. It doesn't matter that my buddy offered me his large three bedroom house with a back yard to rent. It doesn't even matter how much money I was offered. All that matters is the timing. The timing is unreal.
So there it is blogger world. Whatever "God" my family and friends have been praying to (they admit this) has more power over my mine. I'm not ready to give in quite yet. Although I have a small garden apartment (I've always had a house prior), no job, no car, no real girlfriends yet, I'm still not ready. I'm stubborn. I have a lot of fight.
This was kind of my dream. (Although the high rise I used to imagine myself living in, as a little girl, over looked the ocean and not a lake.) I am always thinking that there is something bigger out there. Not something to make me happy (because only you can do that), but something beyond the small Iowa towns I have lived in. Give me culture. Provide me with learning experiences. Send me opportunities.
Do I sacrifice a "safe" life in Iowa for the unfamiliar in Chicago?
I choose the unfamiliar. It's so much more exciting.
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