It took years for the habit to leave my system. It was so deeply ingrained and habitual, that I would wake in the morning and feel an intense feeling of guilt for skipping the routine. I could easily trick my mind, however, into easing the guilt from my brain. "I'll do it tomorrow", was often my best resource.

The last two weeks I have forced myself out of bed, avoiding the excuse ("I have a friend sleeping on my couch!") and directly went into a swan dive and downward facing dog. It's only been two weeks of a 45 minute routine of poses I have memorized in my brain, and aside for the intense back pain, I feel better.

This yoga thing has greatly reduced this amount of work related sludge that has been sitting around in my body, festering and turning. Sludge that stems from feeling like an idiot savant who ends up teaching people how to change batteries in a camera and delete emails. My self esteem plummeted and I doubted myself. But I digress, as a well deserved apology came to me yesterday and I feel better.

Here I am again venting to nearly everyone about this trivial everyday life stuff, stuff that I usually save for my Mom to absorb... poor woman. Actually, poor everyone who has taken the brunt of my self pity these last two weeks. I have been in survival mode lately and have been living in my head.

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I downloaded Motion City's new album and I love it. I was so excited for the release, and now I can't stop listening to it.

My bff's wedding is in two months. I have to prepare a speech and I want it to go something like this... "I love you and I never thought the day would come when I would see you marry a ultra conservative Republican until I realized you were an ultra conservative right winger. You confirmed this discovery by dressing up as Sarah Palin for Halloween. I still adore you and am happy for you despite our great differences....... I love Obama-care and homosexuals."

I love cringeworthy humor and I'm pretty sure this is not going to go over well amongst the 500 some guests composed of farm friendly Iowan Republicans, this makes it worth it.